A close loved one of mine is experiencing some mental health issues.I cannot share any more than that because it isn’t My story.
My role in this can only ever be as support.The script isn’t mine to change.
I can only be the supporting actress in this script.Which is really hard for someone who likes to be in control.
Obviously I am gunning for Best Supporting Actress, because, y’know, #controlwhatyoucan!
So, all I can do is to keep releasing on my desire to be in control of this and to make it all better.I am a healer, of sorts, so not being the one who can effect change is annoying to say the least.
Therefore, I find myself, here, sat on my bed with my Not-Cat*, meditating, finding strength and going through some of the releasing processes I take my clients through to find my way to peaceful acceptance.
* For those of you who don’t follow me on social media, we don’t own any pets, but we have a cat that is not ours – our Not-Cat – that keeps coming round, loving on us & fighting with the neighbour’s cat.
We have traced his owners, so know he is well loved and fed.But seriously.He is here almost all the freaking time, wanders in & goes around to see each person and love them up.
He is also a Healer. We adore him, obviously, and bonus we don’t have any food or vet bills! *
I am writing out my version of how I want the script to go, and releasing all my attachments to my desired outcome.
This isn’t fun work, people.It involves a shittone of ugly crying, anger, sadness and frustration.
But ultimately, I know it will take me to Ease, because it usually does.
And I will probably need to do some again tomorrow or the next day and the one after that, when new stuff comes up to be cleared.Just like taking a shower, or cleaning my teeth.
Because in doing the releasing work, it means if I feel clear and well, I can be a better Mumma, Wife, Coach, Friend.And I can be present to the Loved One’s pain, without it reflecting on my own quite so hard.
And even just a small improvement can make a difference.
If you need me, I’ll be Doing the Work.
(If you also want to feel lighter and free-er, I am teaching some of these techniques in my upcoming course.
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In the meantime, here are some pictures of Not-Cat and me, at the Oscars, winning Best Supporting Actress. I think we rocked it!